GUILTY!

Okay! So I'm guilty for not updating this thing as much as I said I was going to in the beginning. I feel like lately I haven't done much of anything, but at the same time I feel like I never get a chance to rest. Working all the time seriously drains the life out of me!

My last few blogs have been about Derrick's deployment. Update? Well were still waiting. That's what you get when you deal with the government I guess. His set date which was printed on the orders he received was for the 14th, which didn't take long to get pushed to this past Monday, December 19th. Well last Tuesday night, I took a surprise road trip to see Derrick in North Carolina. We were so sure that he was leaving on Monday, so I wanted to spend some time with him before we had to say good-bye. Well of course once I get up there, he gets told that he won't be leaving on the 19th. His new date is now the 28th, which we don't see that falling through either. I only have one feeling about this situation. What the #%$%#$%!!!! It's so irritating-annoying-stressful-confusing. It's ridiculous! I am already so over this military thing. I never knew it was going to be this way and it drives me crazy!

On the bright side! I'm so so SOOO happy that Derrick is going to be home for Christmas!!! After he got off work this morning, he packed his things and drove home! I was so prepared to spend our first Christmas as a married couple apart, but I'm so ecstatic to know that he is here, safe and sound, and with me! 

No matter how much I complain and throw fits, at the end of the day, I love my husband. He is worth every bit of annoyance and agitation that the military brings me and that will never change. He IS what keeps me going and I am so grateful and thankful to call him mine. :-)

A few pictures from my last minute trip to North Carolina, and I'll update this weekend with Christmas pictures!

I hope everyone has a great Christmas!

Army = Irritating!

Okay, so up until late yesterday afternoon, Derrick was ordered to deploy next Wednesday. His sergeants got an e-mail 10 minutes before final formation saying their date is being pushed back a few days. (For the 10th time!!) He is saying the new date isn't even 100% because the flight is already full and they don't know if it can be rearranged. Seriously?! I hate to complain about the Army considering I am joining myself in March, but they are so unorganized and unprofessional!! Don't get me wrong, I'm so relieved that I don't have to say goodbye to Derrick as soon as I thought I was going to, but at the same time I am angry about it. Deployment is a serious thing and I've been holding up the best I can to prepare for the time to come. He's for sure deploying, that's out of the question, it's just when?! I'm so ready to get this over with because it's the biggest headache in the world. I just wish I could tell him bye already so that he can get through it and come home. It's frustrating and I have so many different feelings about it, but it's ridiculous. Anyways! There's my venting for the day. :-)

One thing that is for sure, I love my soldier. No matter how hard being a Army wife gets at times, I will never give up on him. Love him to pieces!

I'm 20!

Today is my birthday and I slept until 2. I should be happy and celebrating but it's not that exciting for me. Things are getting really hard knowing that in a week I will be telling Derrick bye for a really long time. I know with time things will get easier, but it's going to break my heart having to watch him leave. I'm not ready for this but I guess I'm as ready as I will ever be. The holidays aren't going to be the same without him, but I guess I will celebrate with joy by building him the best care packages ever! :-) I've already started buying little things to send him overseas. It's really exciting because I never thought I would be one of "those girls". I admit though that even through it all, I love Derrick more then anything and I'm so happy to have him in my life. This is just a stepping stone for us and I'm just so ready for next September to be here! I will be counting down the days!